Senioritis Hitting Hard

UC Berkeley!

UC Berkeley!

I am suffering from a pretty bad case of senioritis right now. I remember back in sophomore and junior year, thinking that senioritis was just a dumb thing. After all, how could you just suddenly become lazy your senior year? How could you work continuously hard for 3 years just to have no motivation to finish the last year strong?

Boy, was I wrong.

My symptoms first began to show shortly after submitting all of my college applications. This was around late November/ early December. I recalled, thinking: What was the point in trying so hard if I didn’t need to?

After all, I just needed a 3.0 unweighted GPA (Some colleges ask for a weighted 3.0 GPA but it was better to be safe than sorry!) and that was definitely attainable without putting forth an excruciating amount of work and effort. A 3.0 unweighted GPA was merely all Bs in my classes.

I went to class mindlessly and did all of my homework just to get it done with. I never enjoyed homework and with a lack of motivation, I found it even harder to make myself do it. Regardless, I have not missed a homework assignment yet.

This is how I feel about school right now.

This is how I feel about school right now.

Once college decisions were released throughout the month of March, my “illness” took a turn for the worse. I became distraught at the idea of waking up early for school and hated school. I hated the school bells, ringing so often and disrupting my semi-sleep. I hated how I had homework. I hated going to school to do tasks. I just wanted summer to begin and to have high school over with! I yearned for graduation, where I would be adorned with multiple graduation attire and decorations.

However, even though I’m still afflicted with senioritis, I do try to cherish each remaining day of high school. I realize there will probably never be another time where all of my classmates and friends will be together like this in the future. We are all going to different colleges, scattered around the state and even dispersed nation-wide. Each of us will be studying and working hard and trying to achieve our maximum potential. Though there will be Facebook, Skype, Snapchat, and whatever other socializing app there is, it won’t really be the same.

Friends!

Friends!

But I will say I’m still super super excited for graduation. I feel like graduation is where all of your efforts and hard work is shown. It’s where you truly end your high school career and begin the next phase in life: college. Graduation is where you’ll be letting go of the past and reaching out to the future. (Literally.. Because you’ll be tossing up your high school graduation cap!)

So in conclusion, while I am still battling senioritis, I’ll definitely try to enjoy and appreciate my numbered days as a high schooler.